Well folks. It never takes very long with us. Honestly, I marvel at my own fertility. Yes, I am pregnant. Again. Already. We have been blessed with the ability to conceive a child within hours... it seems... of making the decision to try. This is my fourth time being pregnant (did you know I miscarried my first?) and it was instantaneous each time. I've known about this one since week 3, and it's been so hard to let it become real to me. Last week I saw the heartbeat for the first time, and that helped make it real. I am so thankful for that little heart that's beating. oh God, please dont let this baby die.
I'm closing in on week 9? week 10? I'm really not keeping track this time. I've been too miserably nauseaus and sick to pay attention. Seriously... it's been BAD this time. I've never felt so gross with a pregnancy before. It's not fair, really. Not fair at all.
My heart still aches for my son, and now I have a new one to grow. So many emotions... I'm not even going to try to explain.
I'm due in August, on our 10 year anniversary. I get to be pregnant through the summer, again. Yay. Yes, we will find out what this one is. I'm not one that can wait to find out, especially not this time. Whether it's a girl or boy, I'm going to have emotional issues that I'll need to be prepared for.
Once upon a time, Jordan and I strongly believed we were meant to raise girls. But then we had Hudson. And, Hudson wasnt meant to stay. My instinct tells me this is another girl. Because perhaps we were right after all. Maybe we are meant to raise girls, just as we thought. I dont know. Time will tell, I've got a couple months before we'll know.
Anyway, for those who dont know, here it is. We're officially having another baby.
YAAAHHHHH!!!! Congratulations Melissa! This is such AMAZING news!!!! And how incredible that baby Hill is due on your 10 year anniversary! It makes me so happy that another child will get such loving parents and a pretty amazing sister too!!! SOOOOOOOO happy for you both!!! :)
ReplyDeleteso happy for you, Jordan and Neva and admire your courage and strength to try again! i have really good feelings about 2011 for everyone :) been thinking about you guys everyday...give each other big hugs for me! congrats mama!!!
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wuuuuuu!!! congrats! i also miscarried and from everything i have read and been told, it is a GOOD sign to feel all the pregnancy symptoms, however sucky they are...so yay that you are feeling nauseous!!! if that makes any sense :) you will continue to be in my prayers!!!!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Melissa, I am excited for this new life within you! How exciting to hear that heart beat! Love to you all.
ReplyDeleteKatie DeJong
Melissa - Really wonderful news - thank you for sharing. Congratulations!! Happy for you and your family. No fun that you are sick...as I am sure you are still healing emotionally...not to mention taking care of a 4 year old!! Will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteYou know I'm sooo happy for you guys and have wanted to spill the beans since I found out (but was good at not spilling the beans); lots of prayers are going out for you throughout this pregnancy and beyond. As you know, I, too, have experienced miscarriages and they are heartbreaking. You have been tbrough a lot and you are so strong; I'm proud of you.
ReplyDeleteMelissa, You know how happy I am about all of this - but at the same time I recognize your mixed emotions. I suppose it is a good thing to have 40 weeks to process? Thinking of you and praising God for new life. May he bring new life to your heart as well.
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-Rachel
thank you everyone, i really appreciate your kind words and prayers and just all the love from everyone... means the world to me, really!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Melissa! This is fantastic news and I hope your pregnancy starts to become easier. I know you have so many emotions around this and I am constantly amazed at your strength to handle it all. This new baby is so lucky to be born into such a great family. I will continue to pray for you and your family. This is such great news!
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